Dear dpranger,
I am very familiar with everything you describe in your post. It is not unusual in the circumstances, and although very upsetting, does not mean you cannot shut down these sensations. I know you must wonder how this can be achieved but it is not only possible, but you can become stronger through recovery. I know, because I've been there. There is a definite pattern that is experienced by all who go through this.
It also does not matter what the trigger or how long you have struggled. Stress, drugs, street drugs, anger, shock. The recovery process is the SAME. You may believe that you are worse and unable to recover BUT you are incorrect. There is a way out, and it's not as difficult as you seem to believe, regardless of the trigger, you too are able to live a peaceful life again.
I am also familiar with that sensation of not being able to cry although emotions of anger and fear seem limitless. This is par for the course.
Remember, a creative personality often fuels the symptoms. One's intelligence often trips them up. There is a way to direct this mindset elsewhere and stimulate healing. A mind that is exhausted from fear and worry often lends itself to the exact thinking that keeps the sensations going, unless redirected.
Best wishes,
Dr. Ronnie Freedman Anxiety Busters, Inc.
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